It's the weekeeeeeeeend baaaaaaabyyyyy!

I can think of at least 46 songs that are about Fridays and the anticipation of the weekend. I remember Aaliyah's song "Its Friday (hey!) and I'm ready to swing, pick up my girls and hit the party scene...blah blah". Yes its friday, and yes, I am excited that I am not going to be waking up at a ridiculous hour to face the traffick so I can come and spend 8 hours of my day doing random stuff to make other people richer. In theory, I can do what I like. Reality though tells me otherwise. This weekend I have to study my butt off! I am writing two exams next week namely; Economics and Commercial Law.

I went back to university this year after two years of taking a break. Previous to that I was studying to become an accountant and I was failing quite convincingly. I.....was....miserable to say the least. I was miserable because a) I was failing b) I didnt understand what I was learning c) I hated what I was studying and d) I was possessed with some demon. When I was in high school I was excelling in Accounting. I was first in the grade for a number of years and I enjoyed it. I already had displayed some business skills when I was younger e.g. selling sweets, chips and biscuits at school and selling ice lollies at home. When my mother saw my report card and noticed that I particularly excelled in accounting it became a given that I would study to be an accountant after high school. The prestige of being an accountant also swept me off my feet.

I enrolled to Rhodes/Fort Hare. First year was fine - I passed everything. I went on to second year accounting and my own version of hell began. I had never failed before in my entire life. I would not really put too much effort into my studies but I would do pretty well. I was shocked and gutted when I soon discovered that I had to actually learn for my tests and exams (hard, too!), and but could still fail! GASP!

For a good 3 years I tried with this stupid degree called BACHELOR OF ACCOUNTING. I decided to take a break one year because I had to pay for my studies now and I was living on my own for the first time and and and. The next year something happened which I believe was divine intervention because I had been toying with the idea of changing degrees and perhaps majoring in Management or Economics. It was tought to decide to change my degree because I heard my mother's voice about starting something and not following through with it and how much of a bad habit that was. Also, WHAT WOULD PEOPLE SAY??? Then the week of registration at varsity I got into a car accident where I broke my right wrist. For two and half months I could not use my right hand which meant I had to do everything with my left hand, meaning I worked at a slower pace than a snail's pace. I couldn't write properly - could barely type. And believe me, living alone with only one arm is no child's play. I had to clean my flat, do the washing, cook and wash myself all with one arm. Needless to say, that year (last year) I could not study.

And so the journey of finding out what it is that I want to do began. My friend, Bez, had told me numerous times that she did not see me as an accountant. My personality was that of a people person. Cutting a long story short, I did alot of soul searching and I thought this year let me, at least, study and get a normal Bacher of Commerce degree. I thought "SCREW WHAT PEOPLE THOUGHT, I HAVE TO LIVE WITH MYSELF 24 HOURS OF THE DAY... THEY DONT!".

In doing my courses this year and working with one of the directors at my office for a project on developing and upgrading a town, I discovered that I am really passionate about seeing people succeed and live a better life. I am motivated by people who are not lazy to wake up and do something to change their world. If there is a way of assisting people in getting themselves out of poverty then sign me up! After a bit of research i decided I want to go into development specifically town/city development. Majoring in Economics would be very much advantageous. This means that I will now have to add an extra year to my studies in order to graduate with Bachelor of Economics. I dont mind that at all. I just have to now break the news to my mother who is expecting me to finish my first degree at the end of 2011. sigh.

Yay! Indeed it is the weekend but if I want to make my life on earth worthwhile I need to work hard to achieve the vision that I have. The picture is not quite vivid yet but I do know the man upstairs has got plans for me. Until then, trying to obtain my undergrad is enough for me for now.