Firstly, I am so sorry I have not kept in contact for so long. I've been busy with a lot but nothing so big that it warrants talking about.
Two weekends ago I went to Johannesburg and I. Loved. It. I didn't get to experience the night life as much as I would have liked but I guess it wasn't meant to be. I however love the big city lights and highways and big living. One of my dreams has always been to live in New York for a few years. Without fail every friday and saturday night my heart simply aches (not even exaggerating) for New York. My yearning for it is like yearning for a soul mate, a big chunk of me feels like it'll come alive there. Ok, I'm carrying on like a crack head right now. Joburg, in its amazingness, has got a dark side - and its got nothing to do with load shedding - the crime makes living there more expensive because to feel some sort of safety, you need to live in a secured complex or gated community which results in paying rent out of your rectum. I look forward to moving there someday. Fear of the unknown cannot hold me back. I can't call myself a Christian and not believe that God has only the best things in store for me and living life to the absolute fullest is the order of the day. My mother made her circle smaller by not taking chances and living big because of fear or the unknown. That resulted in her being frustrated and picking up bad habits that resulted in her living a very unhealthy lifestyle. She was an incredibly smart and gifted person. I'm not saying that 'to respect the dead' (I don't shell out compliments just 'cos someone is dead, its dumb as hell to do that. The person is dead and can't do much to you) but I have reflected a lot as I grow older on my mother's life and realised she really was clever and gifted but her choices limited her to living a full life. I will learn from her mistakes and keep on, push harder, live harder, be smarter and make a difference for generations to come. In conclusion of that long winded speech, Joburg is definitely on the cards for me. It'll be a step closer to New York :)
Boobs:
I used to find solace in my boobs because they were big. I used to tease friends who have no boobs but swollen nipples. But now those days are gone. Apparently I only have 67kgs to lose only in the breast area as that is the only part that seems to be decreasing with far too much zeal. I happen to like having boobs so this lack of boobs is nonsense. Dear weightloss, try my stomach, bum, thighs and arms - they could use your assistance. Go ahead, knock yourself out. I promise you'll enjoy working with those parts. You can even play ping pong with my thighs, play hide and seek with my butt cheeks and hopscotch with my stomach but leave Mount Everest (my girls -boobs- name) alone.
Gym has been going good. Eating not so great. I have eliminated cheese from my diet. Some weight loss is showing but not enough. Slowly does it I guess. My biggest challenge is to eliminate hot chips(fries, slap chips) from my diet. Getting rid of hot chips needs prayer and fasting for 3 solid years - no jokes.
In five weeks, I am hopefully going to Cape Town for the summer holidays. I would like to lose 6kgs before that. I need a plan. Suggestions will be welcomed.
Time to go to bed now. I was up at 5.15am today. That hour is not just ungodly, its criminal. I'm falling off to sleep as I type. Till tomorrow.
Keep hope alive and remember some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them.
Xo
Mother Larder
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