Let me tell you a story. Many many many moons ago I had just moved into my own place. It was a big room in East London at a place called Birmingham Place (it was an old age home). I lived on the top floor which was the second floor. I remember this time being a very lonely time of my life but I was also very happy to be living on my own. It was a Friday night, I had just realised how much I loved candles and lamps and had switched some on which made the mood very 'romantic' (not in a 'I wanna be your lover' kind of way - maybe more nostalgic...yes definately nostalgic). I had the windows open because a) it was hot and b) (most importantly) the people that lived there before me were dirty (not as in I wanna spank you dirty but seven deadly sins sloth kind of dirty) which meant the constant smell of pee needed to be aired out and the can of 'doom' I had emptied to kill the roaches was killing my lungs and needed fresh air. No jokes, the amount of roaches that I killed on a weekly basis must have reached at least 80. Remember I was living in a room. As my English teacher used to say "anyways, I digress".
The 'apartment' building was placed on the main street of East London which meant it was constantly busy. I absolutely loved hearing sirens go by, people walking cars driving by, nature croaking in the distance. It felt like a lullaby. Plus I could over-look the city and see the city lights in the distance and it made me yearn for something bigger. That was 2006/7. Since then every Friday night, without fail, I will yearn to be in New York. Over the past couple of years my yearning to be in New York has grown exponentially. Every single day I dream of living in New York, performing on broadway, and owning my own businesses. When I listen to John Mayer (amongst others) I feel like I am in New York and my heart leaps. Is it normal to feel this way? I don't know. But tonight as I type this I make a promise to myself that I will get to live in NY. As happy as I am to be living in JHB, the yearning to be a New Yorker grows bigger and deeper each day. I have always theorised that whatever your dreams are, that is ur destiny. Living in NY is part of my destiny and I am praying and opening myself up to God to fulfill that destiny. Will Smith once said 'if you have a dream protect it'. I will protect this dream and it will not stay a dream, it WILL be realised, it WILL become a reality. Few things I need to focus on as steps to realise my dream:
#find finances to pay off friendX for her car ASAP;
#get back to my studies and finish my economics degree;
#get involved in theatre;
#lose weight to be healthier and get roles in theatre;
#get into radio;
#get out of debt; and
#start my own business.
And so it would seem that JHB is but the beginning of something bigger. I've never EVER been outside the borders of RSA but I believe its possible to achieve living - successfully - in the biggest city in the world.
Happy Monday (Mondays are still ass crack but hey, we all need those)
Xo
ML
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