This S. is real!

Larders

Been a while. Been a roller coaster! The last month and a half has been just sweat, blood, tears and changes. So far I have lost a total of 4 kgs. Feels AH MAZING to finally report that. I think I have lost about 1% of body fat - which is most important to me.

I have 5 weeks before I go to a wedding to Johannesburg and I would like to lose 5kgs! This sh1t gets real from today. The last three days have been an eating fest (I feel horrible for even saying that) and haven't been able to exercise because of my knee and pulled muscle. Its been a challenge to walk!

So, things to achieve this year:

-Lose 44kg's
-Move to JHB
-Sort my education out at UNISA
-Start paying for my holiday end of 2014

But for this week, my only goal is to work wake up 4 times at 4.45am and lose 1,5kgs.

On the emotional side. Its been really rough. I cannot shake the deep sadness of missing my mother. My first instinct is to push my feelings aside but I'm facing the pain head on. So much about me is changing and I love it. 2013 is proving to be an awesome year. Praise the Lord for all of this.

Till tomorrow

Xo
Mother Larder
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Sometimes the reality of death hits me so hard that its like I've been winded. Last week I thought I should call my mother as I hadn't spoken to her in a long while then I realised the awkwardness of that situation. Today at the shop I saw a woman who had the same hairstyle, my heart quickened...then reality punched me in the gut.

Today I read that pain doesn't go away but you learn to live with it.

Xo
ML
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